Post by NerdiestKen on Feb 8, 2021 16:05:10 GMT -6
I'll try to tell you my story the best I can. I mean, with the pandemic going on and stuff, this would be the best time and place to tell you my experience.
Since 2005, I had my first battle with depression where in the month of November while I was on the computer and watching the show on TV, something just hit me. All together, I quit the e-fed and folded my original Gamers Underground forum on Proboards and I began to break down. What my mom said while she was on the phone after she got home from work was true, I suffered from depression. Since moving out of the apartment 2 years ago, I had bad dreams on occasions, including the one I had during the night of rioting days after the death of George Floyd. Not only that, the pandemic that hit the USA has torn a lot of lives apart and it tore my life apart.
And in those 2 years since moving out of the apartment and had surgery on the lower part of my mouth, living above my grandmother made me uncomfortable, the rooms are too small, the space is too cramped up just to barely put my stuff in and on top of that, I had to cover up the bedroom window so no one watch me or try to stalk me from next door. Since then, I felt so uncomfortable, I could barely play any games on my computer or watch any of my DVDs and focus on my writing. I could even barely do any of the things I regularly do, but now, I can't.
Today, I'm distancing myself from these things that makes me uncomfortable, I'm happy that we voted for the right president last November, I've lost almost 30lbs and now I'm happy of what I am today. I still suffer from depression off and on for 16 years, but no one will stand in my way because of my mental status and for something I believe in.